"The oldest and strongest emotion of mankind is fear."
--- H.P. Lovecraft
Well that old, strong emotion finally got me today - in a big way. I guess I shouldn't really be baring my soul on here but I've come to look at this as my "dear diary" and quite a cathartic experience. And who knows, maybe someone else can learn from it? So I'm afraid, dear reader, you may have to sit through some of my disturbing rantings today, but I promise a few charts of "probable" trades from today that
should have been taken.
It all started with a terrible nights sleep. It's bloody hot in Perth at the moment which doesn't help but the worst thing was the nightmare I had about having to go back to my old job. Truly terrible dream it was but I still find it amusing that I worry about having to go back to a very well paying job. Maybe it's the loss of freedom I now have, or maybe the
fear of failure of day trading? Of course, friends and family don't help by constantly asking if I'm a millionaire (or broke) yet. Talk about pressure! What's that old saying about scared money in the market?
Anyway, so the lack of sleep results in me sleeping in till 7:30 (market opens at 8am in Perth). I haven't done my prep the night before due to those delicious Tacos I was cooking for the girlfriend last night. So in 1/2 hour I try to run my EOD scans, pick my watchlist, setup my pivot levels, catch up on the news and even try and take a peek at the new posts on the forum. So by market open my mind is jelly and still floating with visions of failure from my dreams.
To top it all off, I stupidly try to watch around 20 stocks off the open. Talk about overkill. Needless to say, within minutes most of them are triggering signals and I'm frozen, no freakin' idea what to do. By now I've also got the thought of "what if I give away all of that profit I made yesterday??" What other negative thoughts can I pile on to myself before 9am?
By 9:30 I realised there was no way this was happening today and closed down my feeds.
Did a lot of soul searching for the rest of the day. Not really sure if I've cracked anything in my wacked out psyche yet but I know I've got to get back on that horse. So to start with I'm at least going to try the following:
- Major reduction in position size! Sure it's going to be harder to turn a bankable profit but it's going to be a lot easier to pull the trigger.
- Major reduction in my watchlist. I'm going down to 2-5 stocks per day. If I don't get any signals, tough. (That's going to be a hard one to live with)
- No trading prior to 8:30 (half hour after market open). Just far too volatile for my fragile risk averse state right now.
- No trading between 10-12 (12-2pm market time), the dreaded market lunch hours. Looking back over my trades today I've found that ALL of my largest losses were over this period. I've read about it and been warned about it but never picked up on it till now.
- Try to find and live by a new proverb on fear. Right now I quite like the old Japanese proverb "Fear is only as deep as the mind allows". I quite like the sound of that
To anyone reading all the way through that drivel I apologise. Just had to get it off my chest
Now as promised, here's a couple of the trades we
should have taken today. As mentioned earlier, there were plenty of signals to take today, far more than my capital would have allowed even on a 5% margin.
CBA should have been number one on the list after yesterday's hayride so I'll leave you with a couple of the setups from today. And just to prove it's not all roses with this system, I've highlighted a couple of false breaks that could have caused some serious grief. I've really got to study these failures hard to avoid the pitfalls.
Until next time my brain explodes...
Cheers
AV