I want to post something on this forum in order to see if anyone has had a similar experience to mine or can help shed some light on the situation.
My lifestyle has been way way over the top. Most days looked like:
5:30am wake up for personal time
8:00 - work
4:30 - come home, update stocks, analyse futures
5:30 quick dinner
6:30 - studies/church commitments (taking trades if I'm at the screen)
9:45 - get home
I basically did not stop from morning to night and the weekends were followed by more study and commitments.
Although the schedule was hectic what was worse was the way I was allowing trading to take over in a way it didn't need to. I commented on my futures thread about this and people could see how consumed I was.
Some nights I woke up 3 or 4 times and ended up checking trades, feeling excited/anxious, struggling to get back to sleep, getting up early, analysing trading during the morning and even at work often being consumed by thoughts, checking stocks etc. Even during the breaks at my course and before going to bed at night. Even on my one night a week, Thursday with no commitments, I'd trade and be tired by 8pm and in a bad mood. On top of this I've had extreme family stressed. A family member went missing last weekend and the police were involved. This is an on-going thing also. The stresses I'm under in general are immense.
A month ago I was picking someone up from the airport and all of a sudden I felt like I was about to collapse and was out of breath. I took a seat for a few mins and stumbled back to the car (I wasn't driving). I went home and ended up in bed more or less for a week (I also had a virus too).
I recovered and was fine for a month and thought it was all ok.
About a week and a half ago it struck again. Virus came back and I got bad anxiety. Shortness of breath. Anxiety attacks.
I've never had anything at all like this before.
The virus passed during the week but I still felt bad anxiety. Almost constantly some days. Very light headed, faint, weak, strong pressure/tightness in my chest. Anxiety attacks. Waking up in the middle of the night and being short of breath.
The last 2 days this has been better, but still not good.
Tests are all clear. Blood tests, heart tests.
It appears that I've had some form of breakdown from the mental overload of everything.
I've been off work for 1.5 weeks (1 day I went in and lasted literally 5 minutes).
Even the THOUGHT of trading or going to work made me extremely tight. So I did neither.
The last 2 days I've finally been able to exercise and live reasonably normal. I'm still getting anxiety in my chest and feeling light-headed. I don't feel right.
I've looked up a bunch of stuff and sought medical opinions and it seems like my body has gone into complete overload. It feels like it is slowly slowly unwinding.
I've let go of a lot of stuff and have spent my days relaxing.
Has anyone experienced anything similar to this?
If so, how long did it last and how did you deal with it?
I thought I'd post on this forum given that trading stress can be intense at times, particular when swamped with a bunch of other commitments too.